dec 9 2022

they tell you about it growing up, how precious your virginity is.

your flower. your purity. the clean white coat of a lamb

don't let anyone touch you! you'll be rotten.

did you know you were born dirty?

better fix that. save it forever. lock it in a box and give the key to your father.

sweet young girl. little little girl.

devoured by the wolf.

"do you just want to get it over with?"

the darkness of my basement surrounds me. the eyes in the tv stare awaiting my answer.

the audio begins to crackle and distort

get it over with

get it over with

get it over with

static.

The Kife begins to slice it's way through

hell greets me in my own body

fire rips through my stomach, branding my organs with His symbol

my nails dig into the arms above me. they beg for mercy but are pushed away

this is the righteousness of god. this is divine punishment. dirty disgusting girl. what have you done?

white fur matted with my own blood. flowers wilted and rotten inside of my skin. i smell the mold sprouting on my ribs

as quickly as He comes, He has gone. Floral soap washes away his sin. I am left to lick mine alone, a wolf in sheep's clothing.

my mother takes me to the fabric store in the morning. they have nothing to stitch what is broken inside of me. my legs shake as i lean against the wall. I've become possessed with His presence. It never leaves me.

I reek of disgust

I lie in the grave i have dug myself. the maggots are kinder. their mouths gentler on my bones

time heals all wounds.

it cannot give back what was taken.