an incomplete list of sexual experiences

i saw this idea from someone else on here, who i unfortunately cannot find anymore. i didn't use names because im a pussy, and i opted to only speak of those ive been in a romantic relationship with. lots of sexual content that you definitely didn't need to know. enjoy!

1.)

i am fifteen years old during sophomore year, and sitting with my boyfriend of six days. i am about to lose my virginity. we dated a year prior, but i broke up with him after he tried to pressure me into sending him nudes. and also because his justification for that was he had fingered me the day before. it was my first time being touched like that and also the worst. we were in his family's camper. i was dry. it hurt. but anyway he apologized and i thought he really meant it and we got back together. and we hungout all the time and everytime we got more and more sexual until that day. he asked me if i "just wanted to get it over with" and i figured i had to at some point so why not now? i laid down on the couch, he stood over me. i was dry (again), mainly because i was scared. it took so long for him to penetrate me. when he finally did, he immediately began pumping into me, hard and fast. it hurt like hell and i told him so and i dug my fingers into his arms until he told me to stop, and i did because i didn't want to make him mad. so i kept getting stabbed from the inside until he came, eventually, and then left and washed up in the bathroom. the next day i could barely walk and i bled for a week. he ended up repeatedly assaulting me for three months after that until i was able to free myself. i still cry when i see him.

2.)

i had been in love, genuinely wholeheartedly in love with him since 7th grade, and we had been on and off since around that time as well. he rode his bike over half an hour in 90 degree weather to my house the summer after 9th grade just so he could make sure my cuts weren't too deep. he kissed them and he kissed me. he loved me a lot. i told him i wasn't ready for a relationship and he ended up getting a girlfriend later that summer. he cheated on said girlfriend with me for a while before cutting me off for her. when they broke up we had a long conversation and he apologized and we started dating secretly. i would meet him in my highschool music room so we could touch each other. i told him about 1 and he cried over what happened to me and we cried about not being each others firsts. the first time we had sex, he laid me down and gave me head and touched me until i asked him to fuck me. we took it kind of slow, but i loved him so much and he was so attractive to me and i had waited so long that i wanted it to happen and it did. he was soft and gentle and checked in frequently and asked me if i was okay and what he should keep doing or stop doing. it was lovely. i cried afterwards but he held me close and stroked my hair. he had really big arms that were naturally comforting. he was an incredible partner to me (for the time being) and we dated for about a year after until he got mean. really mean. he started using me for sex, but he'll never admit it to anyone who asks. he'd probably just call me a crazy bitch if you did. it did irrepairable damage to me and i will always love him just a little bit. he went pretty downhill as a person after we broke up and didn't end up going to college. he wanted to be a mechanic, but i think he works at a dollar general now. we haven't spoken since june 6th, 2024. he viewed my tiktok profile today.

3.)

he started off as a rebound. a while after 2 broke up with me i had sex with 3. i was his first. technically. he had a girlfriend before and he put the tip in her before she decided she'd had enough, so he doesn't count it. i don't know if i would either. but anyway i was in his room that always smelled nice and i gave him head and he moaned more than i expected him too, which was flattering. he asked to go down on me and i told him no - i had a weird thing with that since 1. he tried to put a condom on but had a really big dick, like biggest ive ever experienced, and had gotten the pack from a friend so it didn't really fit all the way. i couldn't feel much and the condom was irritating me but he enjoyed it, and i was happy to give him a good first experience. we hooked up a few times after that (he learned) and i did eventually let him go down on me (it was always too sloppy). he was also the first man i ever pegged, which is fun. we even started dating that summer, but i broke up with him after a few months because he was so immature it was cringy. we tried to be friends but as my previous statement suggests, it didn't work out. we haven't talked since but i miss our friendship sometimes. i hope he's doing well.

4.)

he was and remains to be the only person that has ever made me cum. i lied to everyone else before and everyone else after him when i said they did. we met my junior year and the second i saw him walk into the room i wanted him. he was tall and mysterious and beautiful. i made it my personal mission to get him to like me, and i did. i made him laugh for the first time sitting against a wall of lockers and we exchanged contacts. i fell in love with him very early on. he was scared to have sex again after his last girlfriend who hurt him like 1 hurt me. the first time we did i didn't think it was going to work originally. i was in his house before a school dance he invited me to, and he was so nervous and couldn't stay hard and kept apologizing which made me sad for him. he had no reason to ever be sorry. eventually i got on top, which I didn't like to do, but i did it for him. i started slow to make sure he was okay, and we had sex for a long time. it was intimate and beautiful and pure kind of like the way they portray first times in romance movies. we still have sex today and it is almost always incredible. he is lovely and i love him, deeply.