there is an ache deep inside of me that shudders when i breathe
*
i shiver in the cold
i freeze when i sleep
*
my ribs beg to be touched, pulled apart.
teach me to choke without your gaze
*
sink your teeth into my neck, take what is offered
*
let it seep into your clothes
*
scrape it off of your fingernails
*
sink your hands into my chest,
expand my bones so that i may see the stars,
so that they may look back
*
the wound in my sternum is sticky, it drips.
i rip open the scab so that i may search for you in the scar it leaves behind
*
again, please, again
*
eat of my body and drink of my blood
*
take
take
take
*
i am your god, your sheep
*
flesh of christ, forgive us our sins
*
mother mary, full of grace
*
make use of what i provide.
leave me to thrash and twitch in the mud.
do not turn when i cry out.
*
no one will ask you what you've done.
my blood has long since rusted under their pillow
*
they will catch a glimpse of my devotion
in the shadows of your pupils
and they will understand.
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